I am going to share some things that have been difficult for me. Only my husband really knows what I have been through. He has seen my pain and held me when I have been writhing.

For almost 3 years, I have dealt with chronic pain. I have had numerous scans, x-rays, injections and tried different medications. There have been times when the pain has been so intense that nothing would take it away.

I have a compassion for people who live with chronic pain that I have never had before. Dealing with crippling migraines and chronic pain has changed my perspective. I would never say it, but have thought at times in the past ”Just get over it”. I have walked in a path I wouldn’t want anyone to walk, but I am a different person.

Through God’s grace I have been able to accomplish things I wouldn’t have been able to and seen God work through me in ways that amaze me.  For months I have been praying for wisdom and direction. God has led me to a doctor through interesting circumstances. 

I believe that God heals in many different ways. I have seen him heal myself, my husband and my children without medical intervention, but I have also seen him use medical professionals too.

The sun will come out tomorrow, not because I am meeting with this doctor, but because of the grace of God. My circumstances may not change, but I will serve God and love him because he is enough.

• Do you ever ask yourself how you are doing raising your kids?
• Do you wonder if other peoples kids act like yours?
• Are you afraid for somebody to drop by your house unannounced?
• When you get around other people who “seem” to having it going on do you feel worse about yourself or your situation?

There used to be a time when I was so worried about what people thought of me that it almost paralyzed me. I was so paranoid that people may talk about me or say things about my kids. I have realized it was just fear of failure. I was afraid I wouldn’t measure up.

I can tell you that my kids argue and fight. They are great kids, but they are kids still needing guidance. They sometimes do or say things that require discipline.  I know this is a shocker, but I have had to apologize to my kids.

My house used to be much more orderly than it is now. If you read my recent post on my laundry situation you can tell it’s not as orderly anymore.  I try and make sure everyone has clean underwear, socks and clothes for the next day. If we have that we are good.  Do we have milk and cereal for breakfast? Alright then, it’s definitely going to be a good day.

I can tell you from experience just because people look like they having it all going on doesn’t mean it is so. We all have junk we are dealing with.  Jesus saved me but I am walking out my salvation. I still have stuff I am dealing with and I am not perfect. Don’t worry nobody else is perfect either.