It’s been a long time since I felt completely lost and out of place. Today I was there, but not for long because some amazing ladies showed me what to do and where to go.

We have made a change in our homeschooling and it is scary and exciting all at once. Last week we joined a Classical Conversations group. It is a completely different way of schooling my children with many facets for me to learn.

Several mom’s saw my glazed look and took me by the hand and helped me. Those same moms gave me their contact information and offered to help in any way. One mom even gave me her book with all the lesson plans because mine was on order.

Classical Conversations has a different method and many times feels like a secret language. I was scared and so was my son, but because of the support we experienced today we both know we can do this.

I imagine how I felt today is how many people feel when they walk in our churches. They don’t know anyone and it seems they are coming in right in the middle of something. We have a secret code language and sometimes even a special secret side hug. They feel awkward unless someone takes them by the hand.

Have you ever had so many posts marked “draft”, you didn’t know where to start? Where that’s where I find myself today. So much has been happening and God has been doing amazing things, but I’m not quite sure where to start.

Sometimes I get so excited that my mind begins to race out of control and I can barely grab the thoughts as they are fleeting by. So here is one of the thoughts I was able to catch. One of the huge lessons I’ve been learning is to trust God.

It’s easy to say, “I trust God.” Living it out is completely different. If I am going to trust God, I must relinquish control of the situation and place it in his hands. Fear is the enemy of trust and keeps me from trusting, but God is love and his love diffuses fear.

Letting go of control is a process, but it is worth every step.