Have you had a haircut or color job so bad that made you want to cry? One year ago from this month I had a haircut that made me cry, but not for the normal reasons. My hairdresser had noticed some changes in my hair and suggested we try another style.

You may have seen pictures of me on my about page or facebook with long hair. I had long hair for about seven years and had no intentions of cutting it. My husband loved it long and I like making him happy.

When, Jina, my hairdresser started blowdrying my hair that day I could see how much hair had fallen out. I made the decision with her help to cut it.  I had noticed there was a problem, but I had not told anyone.

My kids loved the new haircut, but Bryan was shocked because he knew nothing about what I was secretly dealing with. It was hard for me to say that my hair was falling out.

The hair loss didn’t stop it actually got worse. By the time of the 20th anniversary and transition we had to cut my hair a lot shorter so I would look like I had more hair. Jina did a great job of styling my hair during this time.

At times I thought Iwould need hair extensions, hair pieces or even a wig (Coni, I thought I was coming to see you)to help me. I never thought I would deal with something like this, and didn’t understand the emotional aspect of my hair.

My hair has begun to grow back and we found the source of the hair loss. During this time I learned that it was easy for me to focus on what I was losing. Please understand this was not an easy time for me and not easy for me to talk about. Instead of focusing my attention on the hair loss, I began to focus on what I did have.

• Salvation-Jesus who died for me
• a husband who loved me even if I went bald-he said for better or worse
• kids who love their mom
• family-who love me
• a dog who loves me- dogs are God’s way of showing unconditional love
• close friends-who have stuck by me through the good, the bad, and the ugly

What else could be the answer to my plight? There is no other explanation in science or nature to the problems I have been facing with my beloved Christmas present.

On Christmas Day, my husband presented me with the laptop of my “dreams” a Mac Book. After working and working with it, thinking I was an idiot, I called Apple Care. Confirmed, no idiot here just a defective macbook. After 5 phone calls my macbook was finally on her way and a new one was being sent to me.

Of course I was making a trip and had to take my 87 lb laptop and 42 lb dvd burner with all the cables and such. The new laptop came the day after I left.

In the last two weeks, I have really buckled down to learn the Mac commands and new way of doing things. I’ve searched the forums for short cuts and even put in my own xcode to run some video software I needed.

Last night, I went to open up Macy and the screen was black. There was an annoying beeping noise  and my husband could see my frustration rising. He gets out his PC laptop and googles the problem and tells me it’s SOS. GREAT!

I went through all the troubleshooting tips and none of them work. Call tech support and their closed. I call today and Macy is going back in the box again.

The only thing I can figure is my personality is so magnetic and Mac’s are so sensitive that I keep messing with their parts. That’s all I got.